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Hidden...

Maybe it's natural introversion, or maybe it's a learned trait from multiple childhood friendship betrayals, or maybe it's a combination of the two... howe'er it be, I am an extremely private person. While I enjoy listening and drawing others into talking about themselves, their trials, and their desires, ask me how I'm doing and the answer is likely to be, "oh, I'm fine."
An acquaintance surely doesn't actually want to know what's actually going on in my life - a budding friendship might be blighted by my honesty - then a developed relationship might be crippled by the revelation of my past secrecy - and so on. There's never a point at which vulnerability seems like a safe choice, so I remain hidden.
But that is not a healthy way to live. We need accountability; people with whom to multiply our joys and divide our sorrows; people we can call and ask for prayer, knowing they'll accept a midnight trip to the ER with a sick toddler and …

In Circles

The marker indicating the highest point in the state of Arkansas (a grand half mile above sea level, but I'll take what I can get in the rice fields). Adam and I (and Tobin) attended a military marriage retreat at Mount Magazine last weekend, and hiked to the top during the "date night" session.

Happy mail from my Fair Trade Friday subscriptions - I wore some earrings (not these) to the retreat and may have sold someone there a subscription. It's so fun to get a surprise package every month - and even better knowing that it benefits women all over the world!
All of the driving there and back gave me plenty of knitting time - I started this blanket with scrap yarn six years ago and I've been slowly adding to it since. Now it's completed, almost 6 feet across, and everything I hoped it would be when I started it.
With the blanket off my conscience, I happily tackled a commissioned creative project - painting/handlettering a sign. This is exactly the sort of thing …

52 Lists Project: the ways you get energized

For me, the best place for a fresh start or to begin a new project is on my birthday - the beginning of my year. So the year I was 21, I did a photo a day project (that ended up including an internship in Cleveland, meeting/dating my now-husband Adam, and going to New York to work for Vogue Knitting - so I'm retrospectively glad that I committed to documenting that particular year!), and the year I was 24, I knitted the sky (one row on a scarf each day in the color of the sky). So for 27, I'm doing lists. I'm going to roughly follow along with the book The 52 Lists Project.

A list of the ways I get energized


1. Encountering something that challenges my preconceptions
2. Solitude
3. Spending time with passionate people (even if their specific passion differs from mine)
4. A walk outside
5. Prolonged awe - especially over physics/nature, and the way they point to God
6. Journaling, with a cup of tea
7. Solving a creative problem
8. Learning something new
9. Completing a long/…

Help...

I am terrible at asking for help. Alright, I was all for calling a rooting service this morning when our main line backed up (again), but that's something I have zero experience or expertise in. But last night when, on the way to church, I spotted a beautiful log on the side of road that was begging to be brought home and made into a seat (the tree was a casualty from a recent storm), I cheerfully told the man who stopped and offered assistance that I "had it." (Retrospectively, after struggling to get it into the front seat of my car - I think it weighs as much as I do - and being spotted by at least one person from church, I regretted not taking him up on his offer, but I did manage it finally).
Even worse is asking for help with an emotional problem. I keep it together for as long as I can, slowly devolving into a greater curmudgeon than usual, all the while wondering why no one is offering me a hug. I mean, can't they tell what's wrong?!
But one day last wee…

Green and Growing

I'll be honest: I don't really like dirt. Plants and growing-things is cool, but once sweat, pesky bugs, weeds, and hoeing start happening, I lose interest. I tried to circumvent this once by creating a hydroponic ecosystem, but it was less than successful (note: a kiddie pool is shallow enough for roving raccoons to easily catch any fish you may have in it. Rest in peace, Hans, Mar and Nicolo).
But Fairy Farm needs to cultivate more than wonder - I'd like there to be some literal growing-of-things, as well. I want Brooklyn and Tobin to know where their food comes from, and I'd like some of it to come from our back yard. We got a start at early cultivation last week at our Whole Foods' "kid's club." The topic happened to be summer planting, so they read a story about a girl who grew too many zucchini and created a neighborhood produce swap, then a lady from a local garden center talked about propagating plants, and as a demonstration she cut up an ai…

52 Lists Project: words that define your personality

For me, the best place for a fresh start or to begin a new project is on my birthday - the beginning of my year. So the year I was 21, I did a photo a day project (that ended up including an internship in Cleveland, meeting/dating my now-husband Adam, and going to New York to work for Vogue Knitting - so I'm retrospectively glad that I committed to documenting that particular year!), and the year I was 24, I knitted the sky (one row on a scarf each day in the color of the sky). So for 27, I'm doing lists. I'm going to roughly follow along with the book The 52 Lists Project.

A list of the words that define my personality

1. Introverted
2. Activist
3. Contemplative
4. Analytic
5. Idealist
6. Dreamer
7. Independent
8. Quiet
9. Loud
10. Determined
11. Passionate
12. Curious
13. In short, INTJ
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Create...

Naps were short today. Usually I can count on Tobin sleeping for at least a couple of hours, if not longer, and Brooklyn will generally play quietly in her room for about that long, but today neither of them was having it. So after an hour I called it quits and packed everyone into the car to go hunt down some peace, since our supply had run low.
I got Brooklyn a lime slush at Sonic (strange 3 year old that she is, she likes limes, and I like that it's made out of actual fruit and isn't dyed an unnatural color) and I cashed in a free drink at Starbucks, and we all drove to the best (and also furthest away) garden center to do some scouting.
We've been to Good Earth for food truck rallies, but I hadn't ever been further than their parking lot, so we weren't quite prepared for the wonderland that met us. For one thing, they have a monkey (or is it a marmoset?). Like, a real one. They have terrariums and plants to put in them and ceramic mushrooms that bring joy to m…

Out Loud

Underneath all of my introversion and how-ladies-behave training, there is a Loud Voice. It was pretty much my normal talking voice as a child (imagine all of Junie B Jones' dialogue in ALL CAPS) but it's become shy with the passage of time. Now it only comes out when I'm perfectly comfortable and confident.
Which sometimes means that the Loud Voice expresses itself at odd times, as on a recent Sunday morning when I switched from normal voice to Loud Voice mid-song. Loud Voice sounds like a completely different person - not only does she project sound more clearly, she has a solid octave of additional range and a better ability to hit to the right note and stay on it than regular voice does (sadly, Loud Voice has only sung in front of people once or twice, as contrasted with the many times that normal voice yawned and squeaked through song leading and solos at the small country church I grew up in).
As much as I would like to, this isn't something I can control - at l…

52 Lists Project: qualities you admire

For me, the best place for a fresh start or to begin a new project is on my birthday - the beginning of my year. So the year I was 21, I did a photo a day project (that ended up including an internship in Cleveland, meeting/dating my now-husband Adam, and going to New York to work for Vogue Knitting - so I'm retrospectively glad that I committed to documenting that particular year!), and the year I was 24, I knitted the sky (one row on a scarf each day in the color of the sky). So for 27, I'm doing lists. I'm going to roughly follow along with the book The 52 Lists Project.

A list of the qualities I admire most in others


1. Honesty
2. Dependability (accidentally put that one on there twice... guess it's pretty important to me!)
3. Intelligence
4. Resourcefulness
5. Optimism
6. Courage
7. Open-mindedness
8. Patience
9. Creativity
10. An appreciation for unconventional beauty
11. Straight-forwardness
12. Persistence
13. Consistency
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Build...

So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus Himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole structure, being joined together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord. In Him you also are being built together into a dwelling place for God by the Spirit. [Ephesians 2:19-22]
I am not a builder. I'm a maker and a co-creator, but building (in the carpentry sense) is not my forte. Do not hand me a board and a miter box unless you have lots of extra wood for me to cut at the wrong angle. I put up curtains last week, but that was anchored onto a framework constructed by someone with a skillset I definitely do not possess.
And, in a sense, that's how it's supposed to be. We literally can't all do the same thing - if we did, we'd starve in our nice houses (or succumb to any other imbalance caused by too much of a good thing). But…

Red, White, and Beautiful

I lived out my word of the year (adventure) pretty well this past weekend, while we were in Fayetteville for the 4th. While we've done Walk for the Waiting (a charity mile that raises funds for fostering/adoption in Arkansas) all-four-together, it was still a new experience to do Four on the Fourth (which supports homeless veterans) with my parents. My dad ran the four miles, and Mum and I walked - we were supposed to turn around at the half mile mark, but we doubled that since we didn't want to hang around the finish line awkwardly waiting for Dad. It rained the whole time, but we shamelessly carried umbrellas and made a grand time together out of what would have been a somewhat dismal experience alone.

My uncle, aunt, and cousins were in town, so one evening while we waited for it to be dark enough for sparklers my cousins and I set about catching a jar of fireflies. As a kid, I always wanted to fill a jar with some many fireflies that they could act as a lantern, but I nev…

52 Lists Project: dream jobs

For me, the best place for a fresh start or to begin a new project is on my birthday - the beginning of my year. So the year I was 21, I did a photo a day project (that ended up including an internship in Cleveland, meeting/dating my now-husband Adam, and going to New York to work for Vogue Knitting - so I'm retrospectively glad that I committed to documenting that particular year!), and the year I was 24, I knitted the sky (one row on a scarf each day in the color of the sky). So for 27, I'm doing lists. I'm going to roughly follow along with the book The 52 Lists Project.

A list of childhood and current dream jobs

1. Ballerina
2, Magazine editor
3. Zoo keeper
4. Movie-costume-knitter
5. Figure skater
6. White House calligrapher
7. Cryptozoologist
8. Non-profit founder
9. Oscar Meyer Weiner-mobile (or Google Earth car) driver
10. Journalist
11. Geologist/paleontologist
12. Knitting designer (hey, I already do that!)
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