So much to do - and a dwindling amount of time to do it in. We traveled Thanksgiving week, Brooklyn and I spent 24 hours in Fayetteville this past weekend, there are a few things left as far as holiday preparations are concerned, and I've still been having twice-weekly doctor appointments. In an attempt to stay alert while driving (without resorting to caffeine) at one point last week, I went through a copious amount of minty lip balm (which was surprisingly effective - I'd usually go with a pack of Doublemint or Winterfresh gum, but stopping with a toddler for the sake of a thirty cent purchase takes the convenience out of convenience store).
Sunday night, tired though I was, I laid in the dark and just kept getting awaker instead of sleepier, so at the end of an hour (which is my limit) I got up and made my to-do list for the week, then knitted until I was wound down and able to fall asleep. Some life seasons resist simplification, and sometimes peace and preparation seem mutually exclusive.
I try to make a list for each week - on one side, it has groceries (things from Whole Foods differentiated from Kroger items by a small star) and on the other, tasks. I write down appointments and deadlines, things-that-need-to-be-done, and make sure to include naps and at least one "jammy day" per week. The number beside each thing corresponds to a day - 1 for Monday, 2 for Tuesday, and so on - and I try to divide the tasks out evenly, that way I won't feel overwhelmed at the beginning, or end up with a ridiculous amount undone at the end (some weeks this works better than others).
The List helps me keep within our grocery budget, saves me the stress of forgetting about something until the last minute and then having to rush through it, and also reminds me that things like rest are important, too. There's a balance to be had, somewhere between getting the busy bossy to-dos to-done and tossing the list to the wind in favor of spontaneity and freedom - and in that middle ground lies calm and order.
Like Sunday - Brooklyn and I went to Whole Foods after church, armed with our list (she carried it, and allowed me to consult it at intervals) but we deviated a little and got a snack to leave in Adam's truck, since he was going to be at the Armory all day for Drill (and because it was the anniversary of the day we met). Like planning for a Sabbath, a nap, or a hot bath, sometimes morale becomes a priority.
The best things are the ones that are both productive and peaceful. Last night, Brooklyn and I ate dinner and I gave her a bath - and then I dressed her in jammies and a jacket, and we went on an adventure. They had a Christmas shopping event at church from 6 to 8, so we spent a little time browsing all of the buy-once-give-twice options and perching on a couch near someone with an acoustic guitar, and spent a little money for the last few gifts I needed. She thought it was a grand adventure, and it also accomplished the double purposes of making a long Adam-less evening go more quickly and enabling her to stay up happily until he got home.
That means that the only gifts remaining are handmade - one knitting project that I hope to finish today or tomorrow, and fire starters that I'm going to have to spend now-'til-Christmas working on, because I can only make them as quickly as we produce dryer lint and empty toilet paper tubes. (It's not very cute right now, I'll admit - but the final step is wrapping it in paper and basketing it neatly, so don't let the slightly lumpy appearance put you off!)
Then comes wrapping - I love that part. I'm going to use inside-out brown paper bags as wrapping paper, supplemented with upcycled gift bags and whatever tissue paper I can find lying around, and I have visions of tassels dancing in my head (totally The Nester's fault). Washi tape will probably also be involved... and I have the fun of matching tags/Christmas cards to the perfect recipient (since, partly thanks to several years of collecting, I finally have an assortment of both). Just a few more weeks to go!
How do you simplify the dichotomy of preparation and peace?